After dressing as a cat, I locked up with the actor

Chapter 64

Rong Yi has been exposed to ballet since he was five years old.

The five-year-old child, whose gender consciousness is not so strong, was put on a pettiskirt by his mother and took a lot of photos. After that, he was sent to the best local dance training institution to practice dancing with other girls .

He watched his mother's dance videos since he was a child, and he didn't think about how hard he would have to put in to learn this dance well, but pulling the ligament was unbearable.Rong Yi, who had been pressed on his legs for a few days in the training institution, couldn't stand the pain, so he mentioned to his mother that he didn't want to learn to dance.

At first, the mother would gently admonish him. Gentle words would not be able to do homework. When the child started crying, the mother couldn't help being agitated. She smashed the dishes, swept the things on the table to the ground, pointed at his nose hysterically Get the hell out of here if you don't learn.

This was the first time in Rong Yi's memory that his mother was so angry. In order not to be kicked out of the house, Rong Yi reluctantly went to the dance classroom the next day, and then his ligament was pulled.

At that time, Rong Yi was the youngest and the only boy in the entire dance classroom. Rong Yi knew that ballet was not a dance that only girls could dance, but he didn't understand why other boys were taking classes in another classroom. Girls study together.He went home and asked his mother, only to get an answer of "Who said boys can't dance girls' dance".

Is what mother said wrong?He thinks it is right, but why do other male students in the school always call him a sissy when they see him?If it's beautiful for a boy to dance a girl's dance, is being a sissy beautiful or ugly?Is discriminating against sissies considered beautiful or ugly?

He doesn't understand, and he doesn't need to understand when he lives beside his mother. He just needs to follow his mother's advice and grow his hair long, and put on a skirt and dance for his mother to see on weekends.

As time went by, the older sister in the classroom gradually left, and a new girl entered the classroom, Rong Yi was no longer the youngest.In the fourth year of basic skills training, he also went to the new classroom, where he was the only boy, and the teacher announced the next training content-toe training.

When he was a child, all the sources of information for Rong Yi were his mother and teachers, so he didn't know that the training content of male and female students was different. Girls practice together.The skin of the nine-year-old child is still tender, and several times his toes were scratched and the skin bleeds. He went home and showed it to his mother, hoping to get some comfort. The mother just took out the medicine and wiped it for him, and said coldly, " That’s how I came here.”

The first time he went on stage was at the age of 11, and his mother signed him up for a small competition held in the city.Rong Yi, who was born as a dancer's child, attracted a lot of attention during the primary election. He went all the way from the preliminary round to the final, and finally won the championship with an original dance.

For him, this is a very honorable thing, at least because of this trophy, his mother praised him very rarely, but to his surprise, when he returned to school, he heard ridicule and strange eyes from others .

"Ah, it's disgusting to wear a skirt even though it's a boy."

"Let's not get close to him, you will become a sissy if you get close to him."

"It's so perverted, you actually wear a skirt to perform."

After several days of ridicule, Rong Yi couldn't bear it anymore, and when he got home, he took out the scissors and cut off the hair that had been left below his shoulders, then turned out all the skirts his mother bought for him, and threw them on the ground, Said in a fit of temper that he never wanted to wear a skirt again.

This is already hard to remember how many times I saw my mother get sick, but I only remember that this was the most serious one.Howling crazily, she smashed the furniture and electrical appliances, cut the dance skirts to pieces, picked up the crutches and smashed the glass windows, and the shattered glass fell all over the floor.Rong Yi looked at his mother in fear, and quietly huddled in the corner, behind him was the window frame that lacked glass, most of the glass fell to the ground, and some stuck into Rong Yi's body.

The storm returned to calm after more than ten minutes. Mother pushed her messy hair behind her ears, looked at Rong Yi with eyes like looking at a stranger, and said, "Why aren't you a girl? alright."

His feet seemed to be filled with lead, which made him unable to stand up. He choked up and asked his mother, "Don't you like me?"

"But you will never be able to fulfill my dream, because the most shining on the stage will always be Odette, not Siegfried."

At that moment, Rong Yi finally understood what he really was in his mother's heart.

He didn't give up ballet, but he didn't want to wear skirts anymore. The cut skirts can't be repaired, and the long hair can't be restored. He will continue to dance and dance the women's ballet that his mother likes.

Maybe it's because he was raised as a girl since he was a child, even though he didn't wear skirts for a long time, Rong Yi still has a little 'sissy' feeling on his body.Fortunately, when he was in junior high school, the head teacher arranged for him to be surrounded by girls, which was better than letting him sit with those who discriminated against 'sissies'.

The girl at the same table is a very cute girl, but she talks a lot, and she keeps talking non-stop. Once she found out about Rong Yi's ballet knowledge, so she clamored to see it. Rong Yi looked at her helplessly and said: : "I danced a girl's dance."

Originally, I thought my deskmate would stay away from me like those classmates in elementary school after hearing this sentence, but my deskmate opened his eyes wide and said excitedly: "Really? It's amazing!"

It turns out that there are also people who like boys to dance with girls.Rong Yi thought.

Rong Yi didn't dare to take his deskmate home, he was afraid that his mother would get sick and do something, so he quietly performed a dance for his deskmate in the school's dance studio. Instead of rejecting Rong Yi, on the contrary, the relationship with him is better.

As the relationship gets better and better, people will criticize it. The classmates in the class began to make the two into a pair, but Rong Yi and his deskmate both knew that each other was innocent.The tablemate is unclear, but Rong Yi knows that he doesn't seem to like girls.

But at that time, he didn't understand whether his so-called dislike was just not calling the girl at the same table, or he had no feelings for the opposite sex.

The psychological change occurred on a certain afternoon on the weekend. As usual, he was walking home from the dance class, and when he was walking along a small road, he was stopped by a few boys who looked a few years older than himself.

He was dragged into an alley by those people, took off his outer pants, and the leader stared at the pants he wore for dancing practice that had not been replaced, and laughed wantonly: "Oh, you are still wearing leggings, it's so perverted." .”

A man behind him held him down, making him immobile, and the people in front of him touched him, leaving disgusting sensations.He hates it, and he doesn't understand why these guys who look about eighteen or nineteen years old think it's fun to bully a junior high school student. If he had to choose between being spanked and having his ass touched through his pants, he would rather choose to be spanked a meal.

Suddenly, he heard one of the men say: "Wow! He seems to have responded!"

These words were like a basin of cold water poured down from the top of his head, and the sense of shame and shame rushed to his head immediately.He didn't know where he got so much strength, he broke free from the prison of the person behind him all at once, picked up a brick next to him, threw it at someone's head without looking at it, and then ran away desperately .

Rong Yi didn't know what happened to the person he hit on the head, but there was a voice in his heart telling himself that he seemed to be different from others.

Rong Yi didn't tell anyone about this difference, not even his closest tablemate on weekdays.Although Rong Yi felt that he felt sorry for him, because the tablemate shared everything with him, but he kept something secret from him.

The turning point in life may be in the afternoon, the day when the deskmate enthusiastically introduced his idol to him.She took Rong Yi to watch many of her idol's stages, allowing Rong Yi to see another world.

Before this, Rong Yi, who had limited sources of information, never knew that there was anyone else who could stand on the stage radiantly like that.It was a completely different life from his, and they all performed on the stage, but for some reason, Rong Yi yearned for the stage over there.

If the mother just wanted him to perform on stage, then maybe she could also allow herself to perform as an idol.

After thinking for a long time, Rong Yi told his mother what was in his heart, but naturally he was severely scolded. The most terrible thing was that she blamed all this on the tablemate who made Rong Yi come into contact with idol culture. He brought his own child to death, so he contacted the head teacher on the same day and asked the head teacher to change seats for the two of them.

The new tablemate is a sloppy boy, he doesn't like 'sissy' very much, Rong Yi has no common topic with him, when no one talks, the whole day will be silent.

After that, Rong Yi carefully mentioned to his mother that he wanted to enter the entertainment industry, but was always rejected by his mother.My mother thinks that the idol culture that Rong Yi yearns for is low-class and lowly. Only elegant art should be the pursuit of life. Rong Yi's life goal should be to become a ballet dancer who is admired by the world, not to be a dancer. Idol.

At the age of 14, during the summer vacation after graduating from junior high school, Rong Yi passed by the door of a certain entertainment company, and met the person who brought him into the entertainment circle.

After many twists and turns, that person helped him enter the entertainment industry, but on the contrary, after entering the entertainment company, his mother never contacted him again, "I don't need a child who can't realize my dream." His last words.

After being depressed for a long time, he started the life of a trainee. Because he has nine years of dancing skills, Rong Yi's practice progress and strength are already much higher than others.Three years later, Rong Yi formed a group with three other trainees from the company and officially debuted.

Being an idol is not as simple as he imagined. When they first debuted, it can be said that no one cares about them. There are often more than half of the seats at the bottom of the concert, and the album cannot be sold.After living in obscurity for a year, one member of the team left the group due to family reasons, and another newcomer joined.

The newcomer's family conditions are very good, Rong Yi only remembers that the group went viral after that member joined, their announcements increased, the album would no longer fail to sell, and the concert was almost sold out. In the third year, they The popularity of the group reached its peak.

The reason why it was said that the peak stopped in the third year was because one of the characters in the group - Rong Yi had a scandal in that year.

Their combination is not as harmonious as it appears on the outside. In private, each member does their own thing.Rong Yi was standing in the stairwell that day, after calling his mother several times but being hung up again, when he turned around, he saw the new member who made them popular standing behind him.

Rong Yi never likes to talk to them much, and after saying hello, he planned to go back, but the man stopped him and said frivolously, "I just heard from them that you were born in ballet?"

Not knowing what he wanted to do, Rong Yi nodded: "Yes."

"You are a man, why do you dance a woman's dance," he approached Rong Yi, and said with a smile, "Are you gay?"

A secret that has never been mentioned before was told lightly like this, Rong Yi's face showed anger rarely, due to the identity of the person in front of him, he didn't say anything harsh, just said: "Get out of the way, I'm going back .”

He didn't move away, but moved closer to Rong Yi and said, "Me too, how about you play with me? To be honest, I liked you the first time I saw you. You are beautiful." And noble, different from others, come with me, I can give you a lot of things you want."

Rong Yi pushed away the man in front of him, tried his best to suppress the anger in his heart and said, "I will not accompany you."

Bearing it again and again can only bring about greater interest in the other party. The man grabbed Rong Yi by the collar and pushed him to the wall, intending to imitate the domineering president in the TV series and give him a strong kiss that captures people's hearts, but the kiss failed. Kissed, but was slapped by Rong Yi instead.

The man covered his face and glared at Rong Yi, and issued a verdict for him: "Okay, you wait."

Two days later, Rong Yi waited for his punishment of slapping someone in the face. An entry named 'Rong Yi's team bullying' appeared on the hot search out of thin air, and it became the number one hot search in a short time. A lot of maliciously edited clips were placed in the video for no reason, charging Rong Yi with an unwarranted charge.As if to prevent Rong Yi's fans from defending him, at the end of the video, there was a clip of Rong Yi slapping his teammate for a few seconds.

If the other clips can still be said to be malicious editing, the slapping clip can be said to be a bullying incident.This incident caused a thousand waves. At first, it was only the fan who was slapped on his teammate who tore up Rong Yi, and then the group fan and the only fans of several other members tore Rong Yi together. From tearing up within the group to becoming a hacker on the Internet.

After that, Rong Yi was picked up for other black spots, even the photos of him wearing long hair and wearing skirts in junior high school were picked up.One of the most criticized is the 14-year-old severing relationship with his mother.Many people think that Rong Yi's actions are simply for the pursuit of fame and fortune and disregarding family affection, which is really unfilial.

Bullying, unfilial son, transvestite, plus various other trumped-up charges, during that period of time, whenever Rong Yi went online, he would face overwhelming abuse and doubts.He didn't even dare to go out, as long as he went out, he would be surrounded by reporters squatting downstairs.

The good reporter also ran to intercept Rong Yi's mother to force an interview, and after embellishing all kinds of things, relayed them to Rong Yi's mother, and then asked her what she thought.

When that interview was broadcast, it was Rong Yi's 20th birthday. He silently looked at his mother's back. Her voice and tone were still the same as before.

"He's a useless piece of shit."

This was the last time Rong Yi heard his mother speak in his life.

Then he swallowed a bottle of sleeping pills.

The author has something to say: Xiaorong's mother is like a manic disorder, not a mental illness

Many of the lines spoken by other people here appeared in Xiao Rong's dream in Chapter 18

This chapter is very long. I originally wanted to divide it into two chapters, but I feel that this kind of memory is of a nature, so I just finished posting one chapter.