Severe Emotional Cleanliness Mutual Aid Group

Chapter 13

The man's name is Jiang Changkan, Fang Ran's old love.

The waiter brought the coffee, and Jiang Changkan thanked him, then leaned over a little, and actually picked up a cube of sugar for Fang, put the sugar cube on the spoon, and then dipped the spoon into the cup.

"You were so self-willed when you were in college. The hospital diagnosed you with gastric ulcer and asked you to take medicine and pay attention to your diet. You threw away the diagnosis sheet as soon as you went out, and continued to drink a cup of black coffee on an empty stomach in the morning without breakfast. "Jiang Changkan said with a smile, "I advise you to cherish your body, and you should ignore it. If you talk too much, you still have to be anxious with me."

Fang actually smiled self-deprecatingly: "Who didn't do stupid things when they were young. If you say it nicely, it's called youth, but if you say it badly, it's an idiot."

Jiang Changkan smiled, a little nostalgic, a little doting, "I never thought you were stupid, but I envied you for doing whatever you want, daring to do anything, fearing nothing, not caring about the consequences, and daring to bear any consequences At that time, I looked at you and thought, if only I could ignore you like you, if I could always be by your side."

Fang actually took a sip of coffee: "In the end we didn't stand side by side, and you still lived a good life. We should raise our glasses to celebrate this. After leaving each other, we all have a better life."

The corners of Jiang Changkan's eyes added a touch of depression: "At first I thought so too. I have a smart and beautiful wife, a promising career, and a marriage blessed by my parents. I have enough material foundation to support various hobbies outside of work. .First I traveled the world, then I started running marathons, then I started climbing mountains.”

Fang actually smiled and said, "What made you doubt life later? The legendary mid-life crisis?"

Jiang Changkan smiled shortly: "Hahaha, I think middle age is still very far away from me."

Fang actually laughed too: "Deceive yourself."

Jiang Changkan smiled and returned to gloom: "One year I went to Madagascar to participate in their 'Corpse Exhumation Festival'. They dug up the corpses of their ancestors from the graves, put on new shrouds, and then Singing and dancing with corpses carried on stretchers."

Fang Ran: "So what do you want to say, that cleansed your heart?"

Jiang Changkan shook his head: "No, the weather is very hot, and the ground is full of dust. They carried the corpses and twisted their bodies indiscriminately. Everyone was in high spirits, it seemed like it was the most spectacular scene in the world. It made me feel absurd."

Fang Ran: "Using a certain popular interpretation method, this is called pure happiness. A simple smile that is not polluted by industry and commerce should make us impetuous urbanites feel ashamed."

Jiang Chang said with a smile: "You are still sharp."

Fang unexpectedly: "Or it can be called, mean."

Jiang Changkan continued: "I have seen Qionglou Yuyu, I have seen how to spend a lot of money, I have seen how the rich and rich are absurd and extravagant, and then I saw a report praising how simple the residents of Madagascar are, and what is the source of their happiness Simple, how mysterious and traditional Resurrection Day is."

"I went there with a mentality of exploring ancient civilizations, and what I saw was that they had no choice. It wasn't that they chose a simple and happy way, but the lag of development, which led to a single choice of entertainment, and this was caused by those The middle class in the city, beautified into the so-called original ecology used to show style."

Fang actually smiled: "Then?"

Jiang Changkan looked at him deeply: "Then I thought of you."

Fang Ran: "These two things can't be matched. Shouldn't you be shocked by your heart and then join an NGO and devote yourself to improving the lives of people in impoverished areas from now on?"

Jiang Chang couldn't help but laugh: "Later, I donated money to a certain charitable organization regularly, but I didn't personally devote myself to the cause of relief. After all, I am such a selfish person."

Fang unexpectedly tapped his fingers on the sofa, and replied: "That's true."

Jiang Changkan said: "I thought I was such an idiot at the time. After sitting for so long in the plane and car, I came here with a mood full of expectations, but I saw such a dusty place. Ridiculous scene."

Fang unexpectedly: "What does this have to do with me?"

Jiang Changkan: "I was looking forward to forgetting you there, but in the end I realized that I love you more clearly. I used to think that as long as I have seen enough scenery, met all kinds of people, and met disregarded Countless things, I can forget you."

"But there has never been, whether it is the magnificent Grand Canyon or the rushing waterfall, whether it is the blazing volcano or the Antarctic glacier. No matter where I stand in the world, I miss you."

"Madagascar was the last stop of my trip around the world, and I knew from then on that this method was not working. After that, I started running marathons."

Fang actually couldn't help laughing: "I haven't seen you for many years, and my tongue is becoming more and more brilliant. This can make you come back, it's amazing."

Jiang Changkan said with a smile: "Before running the marathon, I read a lot of related articles. Some people said that in the last kilometer, the body was extremely exhausted, and the mind was empty, without any thoughts."

Fang unexpectedly: "I have heard this saying, and some people say that this time is the closest to God."

Jiang Changkan: "Yes, so later, I ran many marathons, many, and participated in all the competitions."

Fang Ran: "So have you seen God?"

Jiang Changkan: "Of course not. In every last mile, I think about you."

"I'm almost moved," Fang actually looked at his watch, "so the next thing is the story of mountain climbing. You have climbed many mountains, and every time you reach the top, you miss me, isn't that right?"

Jiang Changkan: "Yes, in the end I couldn't escape Mount Everest. I missed you on the highest peak in the world. I carved your name on the glacier with a knife. Then I felt that I should come back. "

Fang actually smiled: "What about your wife?"

Jiang Changkan explained: "She fell in love with someone else three years ago and separated from me."

Fang Ran: "So she abandoned you, and then you thought of me again."

Jiang Changkan smiled bitterly: "Unexpectedly, you know that this is not the case. I have always loved you."

Fang Ran: "But you broke up with me and married her."

Jiang Changkan: "Do you resent her?"

Fang actually smiled and said: "How could it be? I have always admired her, she is independent, independent, knows what she wants, and dares to fight for it. We broke up at the beginning, maybe it was because of my willfulness, or it might be because of yours. Cowardly, but certainly not because of her persistence."

Jiang Changkan stirred the coffee with a spoon: "Yes, when she divorced me later, she apologized to me, saying that she was too naive when she was young, and thought that her continuous dedication would one day impress me. Later she met When she got to that person, she realized that love is not the same thing. She apologized for her ignorance and conceit."

"She didn't owe us anything, we owed her. Even without her, you would still go on a blind date with other girls under the pressure of your mother, and I would still act impulsively after learning about it. Pulled you to come out of the closet, and you will eventually separate from me amid the objections of your family. I am gay, but you are bi, and you do not reject marriage with the opposite sex. Without her, you will find another crush You, don’t mind a silly girl whose heart you belong to. Or find someone who doesn’t have much affection for each other, and the material conditions match, and you can live on.” Fang actually smiled, “Men always like to throw all the pot away Give it to the girls, as if you are really innocent in this way. Women are disasters, women perish the country, and women destroy our feelings."

"But in my opinion, her fault is nothing more than infatuation and wrong payment. It is us who ruined our relationship."

Jiang Changkan's eyes were a little red, he stroked his nose with his hand, and smiled sadly: "Why not."

"Unexpectedly, I..."

Fang actually interrupted him: "If you miss it, you miss it, and you can't go back in a few words."

Jiang Chang said anxiously: "I heard that after you separated from me, you have been..."

"Constantly having sex with people?" Fang actually smiled, "There was indeed a period of time when I wished to experience different sexual relationships. But it was not as exaggerated as the rumors said, and the time span was not that long. Later, Once, a person who had been in a relationship with me for a while had a wrong crush on me, and after failing to get the expected response, he secretly took a photo while I was asleep and posted it on the Internet. More and more outrageous rumors."

"I really indulged for a while at the beginning, maybe there was also the reason why I was depressed after the relationship failed, maybe it was because I was a little confused and uncertain about life, just like you go to experience different scenic spots, I experience different relationships. That's all."

"Later, I started to end this kind of life because I saw some people in the circle contracted an incurable disease due to a momentary omission. At that time, Xie Lan said a word to me. He said, Jiu Zou Ye Ye There will be ghosts on the road."

"So, it wasn't because of you that I started that life. It wasn't because of you that I ended that life. I cut you out of my life the moment we parted."

The corners of Jiang Changkan's mouth were tight, and his eyes were a little red.

Fang actually almost suspected that he was going to cry.

But he didn't intend to show him unnecessary pity. He continued: "I met my current partner four years ago, and we have always been very happy. He secretly threw away all my coffee, every morning Cook me millet porridge, warm milk, and sometimes let me drink some wine, but not on an empty stomach."

"Jiang Changkan, I haven't had coffee on an empty stomach in the morning for many years."

After hanging up the phone, Jin Chunan put the clothes in the washing machine into the dryer, and then went back to the living room to tidy up the sofa.

After tidying up for a while, Jin Chunan found a pair of underwear and a sock from under the sofa cushion.Fang is actually a slacker, with bad hygiene habits, throwing dirty clothes and socks casually, and buying new ones if he can't find them.

Fang actually doesn't pay much attention to his health, drinking and staying up late is commonplace, and he often gets drunk when he goes out to socialize, throws up in the toilet when he comes back, and sometimes stays out at night.

Fang actually has a bad habit. He doesn't like breakfast in the morning and likes to drink coffee on an empty stomach. Jin Chunan couldn't stand it, so he secretly gave away the coffee machine and coffee capsules at home.Fang actually started drinking, drinking on an empty stomach in the morning, mixing vodka with Erguotou, and drinking it deliberately to show Jin Chunan.

Jin Chunan had no choice but to buy him a coffee machine.So Fang unexpectedly lived a life of drinking coffee on an empty stomach every morning.Jin Chunan no longer expects him to get rid of this bad habit, but only hopes that he can eat a little breakfast to reduce the damage to the stomach.

Jin Chunan leaned on the sofa and thought sadly, Fang would definitely not be able to live without him.